Christmas Party

So...... my company christmas party is this saturday and i was actually pretty excited for it. It sounds really stupid but this type of parties kinda mean a lot to me. Well as it turns out ryan isnt going to be here by Saturday and its somewhat lost all its appeal. I really dont wanna go now and i dont know who to take since i already paid my 20 bucks for my guest... yeah we have to pay for our guest but what can i say times are hard and honestly were kinda lucky to be having one at all as most of the other hotels have cxl'ed theirs... but im really bummed about it as monicas party is that day too and i guess i'll be going stag to that as well. I think the thing that makes me upset is that ryan acts like this is no big deal, like i havent been asking him for the last month if he will be here.... blah im just upset.... so i guess this is my angry blog post